A roller coaster of emotions

This year has just been a huge roller coaster of emotions, everything just seemed to happen at once, which has resulted in quite a few teary moments plus many happy ones too.  A follower on Instagram recently noticed that I have been a bit ‘quiet’, which was lovely of her to check in.  I have been writing this blog post in my head the past few weeks and thought now being the end of school term I should put fingers to keyboard and share with you how I have been feeling of late. You know me, I am a positive person, happy, smiley and to those that know me well vibrant (to those that don’t I maybe a little shy).  I like to help people in need, celebrate every occasion I can, birthday’s, successes etc.  I keep my home clean and tidy, cook my family delicious dinners, make healthy lunch boxes, keep on top of the dirty laundry.  So on the outside I am OK, but emotionally I have been a wreck and when I get like this I just bottle it all up and get really quiet.

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I ‘think’ I have stepped off the roller coaster now and found my feet again. We all can’t be perfect supermum’s, so I wanted to write this post to share with you my reality of late and how I have tried to resolve ‘my ride’, which I am sure that many of you can relate too.

My roller coaster ride

My kids started at new school this year.  The twins made the move into high school, the school is prep – 12 so we managed to get our youngest a placement into the school as well. The change in school is where my roller coaster ride started.

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I knew the new school had a different expectation than the last on the kids, so at the end of 2014 the three kids stopped doing karate so they could concentrate on what the new school will give them, looking back now this was certainly the right decision.  The twins had started karate when they were 5 and reached their black belts last year at the age of 11, super achievement, my youngest started when she was 4.  During the years of karate I made some really lovely friends.  Blogging can be quite lonely, sitting at home with nobody to talk to all day while the kids were at school and hubby out at work, so I really cherished my time catching up with the other karate mums and just talking about every day banter. Skipping forward a few weeks after the kids started at their new school and we were getting into routine it hit me how much I was missing the karate mums and how lonely I felt without seeing them so often. Resolution – we have organised our calendars to catch up for lunch once a month and then a kids catch up in between.  We also started a private facebook group, where we can openly chat, share our lows, highs and other banter.  Things we normally wouldn’t necessarily want to share with the rest of our friends on facebook.  I have a few of these groups with different circle of friends, they are fantastic.  You can create one for your circle of friends, see how to here.

Between end of school 2014 and start of school 2015 I was so worried and concerned about how I was separating the kids from all their friends. For the twins all their mates were splitting anyways to attend different high schools, but mostly my youngest has a beautiful friendship with her best friend and even though in my head I knew the new school was the right thing for her, taking her away from her friend broke my heart.  Resolution – they chat frequently on iMessage and we will make sure they catch up over school holidays.

As I mentioned I knew the school had a high expectation of the kids, and by this I don’t mean just academically I mean with participation in various school activities, homework and more subjects than the kids were used to at their old school.  It took us a while to get used to the new school routine, with the kids leaving home between 6.50am -7.30am in the mornings and two or more of the kids not returning home until 5pm most afternoons.  Plus they had to do their homework, which for the twins takes at least an hour every night.  After the initial first few weeks of such long days I began to worry and had visions of the kids burning out. I got so worried that it had me in tears and I felt physically ill.  Reality was the kids were coping fine, at home we had our routine worked out well, dinner was on the table shortly after the kids returned home from school, they checked their school timetable to know what subjects were on the next day and made sure that subjects homework was complete, they packed their bags for sport before bed, woke up, lunches were made and out the door to do it all again with no fuss.  It was just me worrying, perhaps I was a little OTT with over thinking.  Resolution – I called up a friend and told her that I was a wreck and needed a chat.  Needless to say she was going through the same emotions with her son just starting high school too. Talking about it made it not so isolating.

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The second week of school I rushed my youngest to emergency, she was having horrible chest pains.  After dinner she mentioned her chest was hurting, we sat down and watched some TV, she turned to me with a horrid look on her face, no words, I could tell she was in pain, not excruciating, so I didn’t call an ambulance. I popped her in the car and rushed her to the hospital, I was talking to her the entire ride and was so worried, it was then I realised I should have called the ambulance as you just never know what can happen during that time, all I wanted to do was sit in the back seat and hold her (hubby stayed home with the twins). Thankfully the hospital saw her straight away.  She had inflamed chest cartilage, which the doctors couldn’t determine how it was caused.  They monitored her for a while and sent her home, but it truly gave me a huge scare.  We soon realised it was all caused by her school bag, her back pack was so heavy, walking up a flight of stairs with the backpack at school was just too much on her very small frame. Resolution – we purchased her a backpack on wheels and thankfully her pains have not returned.

Then the blog has given me grief.  You all know I love writing and sharing my tips, recipe etc on the blog.  So it pained me when shortly after the new year it started playing up, it took weeks for me to work out what was going on.  At the end of January during my busy back to school period I had to take the plunge and change hosts, which saw the site down for a few days, I was unable to write blog posts for a full week (which I was just devastated as I had so much to say and share about back to school, it got me into a huge panic and felt very out of my depth, thankfully my tech help Chris came to my rescue, I am so very very grateful). Still a few months on we are smoothing out little teething problems.  However I can’t work out why it took me so long to realise that the contact forms on all my sites, the blog and the shops had stopped working since the change over.  I have felt sick with worry that all those people who have sent me an email through the form are cursing me or thinking I am so rude for not responding.  I also had to put a few plans that I had for a series of blog posts on hold, which mucked up with my schedule. Resolution – unfortunately for the emails there is none, I just have to move forward and apologise if they resend the email (please do if you are reading!!). As for the series I put on hold, I have scheduled this in to start after the school holidays!!

The kids are growing up

Since the beginning of the year all my kids have had their birthdays, the twins are 12 and youngest is 10 (this is Miss 10’s cake below). I have to share a little about the cake with you as I think this is a brilliant concept.  It’s a Cake to the Rescue kit, they send you everything you need to create a design you have chosen from their site, all you need is the fresh ingredients such as eggs, butter and milk.  The kit includes the baking tray, rolling pin, server, fondant, design template and more, really does make creating a stylish cake super easy.  Miss 10 LOVES penguins.

IMG_6400Mr 12 is turning into a young man, and I must say looks so handsome in his new school uniform.  The girls have started playing Netball on the weekends, both enjoying it.  It is a joy watching the girls play a team sport.  Mr 12 hasn’t signed up to anything yet.

They have all transitioned into their new school really well, making friends and keeping on top of their school work.  They come home from school happy and look forward to going back.  Moving schools was the right choice, I have no regrets.

Being that it has been such a busy and tiring term of school we are dedicating the school holidays to rest and relaxation, having a staycation at home.  I am also going to take some time off writing blog posts over the holidays, I have worked really hard these past few weeks to make sure I have posts scheduled in for you to read during this time though.  I am really looking forward to some chillaxing with the kids.

Moral of my story

So moral of this story is it’s OK to worry, life is a roller coaster of ups and down, you just need to determine a way to stop it when it’s getting you down, if you allow it to continue it’s not good for your health or sanity.  Plus you don’t want me to keep quiet do you!!

It has only been in this past week or so I am feeling my happy normal self again, with many things to look foward to, holidays, our wedding anniversary, gardening, stop my procrastination and start the process to get my kitchen redone, working on a few projects for the blog which is always fun and I think I will try and plan a family holiday away for the June holidays in between.

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41 comments

Michelle B April 1, 2015 - 12:30 PM

Hi Katrina. As someone who has followed you for years, I have always marvelled at your devotion to your family in amongst running such a great blog/website/business. I love how honest you have always been about the challenges you have faced to show the rest of us that even the most Organised Housewife is not perfect 😉 You sound like you are making some important adjustments for the benefit of your mental health and your family. Good for you – as always you are a shining example to us all. Us devoted followers aren’t going anywhere and no doubt this change of pace will give you more stories/hints/tips to share with us. Have a wonderful break over Easter.

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 1, 2015 - 12:44 PM

Thank you Michelle. Until the lovely follower on instagram said something, I didn’t realise I was quiet on the blog, and looking at it I was, no posts on instagram and no real conversation on facebook. I was just concentrating on my to-do list, head down, bum up as I say. I think it’s really important to keep it real and share I am not always 100% on top of it all.

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Leanne Evans April 1, 2015 - 12:44 PM

Hi, I think a lot of us empathise with you. When my eldest started Gr 5 last year at a boys school, the first term was very much panic stations. Everything was so different, and that was just for me! These kids went from boys to young men in one massive step and it was a bit hard to handle.

I recently had a mum at school comment on how calm and collected I always seemed to be even after 2 drop offs in the mornings, I hastily assured her that like a duck, my legs were kicking as hard as anyone else’s under the water!!

Everything does work itself out eventually and generally for the better. Sometimes we just have to stop, rethink and recharge so enjoy your holiday break.

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 1, 2015 - 1:02 PM

Kids can be so resiliant, and exactly as you say it was just me and my over thinking and then everything else just made it all very hard. Can’t wait for the holidays, hope you enjoy them too!

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Stacey April 1, 2015 - 1:40 PM

Thank you for sharing. I have had the whole roller coaster this term too for various reasons, and then I get anxious about being anxious! I love how you found a “resolution” to your problems, and reading through, I see how practical and logical they are. Sometimes when caught up in the moment I can’t see through to these oh so easy solutions. On the weekend I had a break through and think I am over it all now… it still puzzles me that these things affect me so much when I am normally so relaxed. But it does. And it helps to know it happens to others too (although I wouldn’t wish it on anyone of course)

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 1, 2015 - 1:44 PM

it’s funny how such little things can affect us, I too was surprised of how I reacted, but talking to my friend was my breakthrough. I hope it settles for you soon. x

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Vanessa April 1, 2015 - 1:42 PM

Different reasons for the dips but 2015 has very much been a RollerCoaster for me too. In fact including today when I just resigned from my job to avoid a bad situation. Ah! Life is what it throws at us & all any of us can do is our honest best. I’m nervous about what is ahead but my spirit is lighter already.

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 1, 2015 - 1:53 PM

the huge positive out of this Vanessa is you know your limits and gave yourself the power to get yourself out of that situation, go you!!

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Nicole @ The Builders Wife April 1, 2015 - 2:26 PM

Oh Kat, how I feel for you. I have been going through very similar to yourself, with 2 of our children starting high school this year. We just seem to be so busy, there is little or no time for the things I used to do. Not that I am a big socialiser, but the occasional catch up with friends is so important to us Mums. We just have so much to talk about, to share and to be sure we are normal! I am so pleased to hear you are feeling better. xxx

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 1, 2015 - 3:17 PM

absolutely Nicole, we have found with the kids school work our afternoons and evenings are out to catch up with any family and friends, Netball from 10am on a Saturday and we are exhausted from being in the sun all day, then comes Sunday and we just want to chill. But I agree the socialising is so important.

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Sonia from Sonia Styling April 1, 2015 - 2:31 PM

Oh Kat, what a rollercoaster of emotions! I am so riding along on the same ride with you… albeit for different reasons. I thought this year would be different. I’m not sure why? But I was filled with so much hope and enthusiasm when the calendar flipped over to 2015. But now? I’m struggling. I’m stressed, overwhelmed and feeling a bit shit. I know this will pass. I’ll get back on track again, but in the meantime I’ve just got to cut myself some slack and keep doing the best I can. Which is exactly what you’re doing too – you’re best. Big hugs to you, lovely. x

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 1, 2015 - 3:09 PM

ooh lovely lady I’m right there with you, I was so ready for 2015, my birthday is a few days before the new year this was the day it started to go down hill, I was sick, which cancelled all my birthday and new year celebations, I was sick for a further week, then website decided to play up and it just kept going. I want a do over!! Can’t wait to catch up, see you soon and have a good chat!! I hope that things start to improve for you, your right, you need to look after you a little, cut yourself some slack! xx

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Rah April 1, 2015 - 7:33 PM

Kat, I’m glad you’re feeling more like yourself again 🙂 I go through low patches and it’s always a relief when I see it lifting x

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 1, 2015 - 7:39 PM

Thanks Rah xx

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Jacqui Moore April 1, 2015 - 7:48 PM

Look after you. You can only be there for your kids if you are nutured too. Thanks for sharing, it’s good to know we all have time when we feel overwhelmed. Good to know we love and are loved. Best wishes.

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 11:54 AM

Thank you Jacqui x

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Mel Bell April 1, 2015 - 8:23 PM

Kat, how brave are you! To recognize you’re feeling a bit flat and then to make such positive changes is awesome. Then to share your experience… you are a gift to all of us. Life can be be tough – I always refer to it as a roller coaster, but if you have more up times than down I reckon you’re doing ok, and I am sure you’re going to be ok! Hugs xx

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 11:55 AM

Thank you Mel, I’m really pleased I shared this and hearing that so many can relate, I think it’s really important to share the good and the bad, it’s a reality of life and that’s what people are here to read. I can’t wait till 3pm this afternoon, holiday time!!

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Michelle April 1, 2015 - 8:24 PM

Hello Katrina, I just wanted to thank you for your refreshing honesty and willingness to share your troubles. I am sure all of us empathise, I am having a bit of a rough patch myself at the moment after missing out on a job I really hoped I would get, and it is reassuring to see that someone such as yourself, with all your hallmarks of success (blog, design, parenting, creative projects etc) can still be thrown off course by life’s issues as much as the rest of us, yet feel free to admit this and continue to work towards solutions. I hope you have a great Easter and find the time you need to reconnect with what is important to you.

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 11:53 AM

I’m so sorry Michelle that you missed out on the job, I hope another opportunity is coming your way soon. I am so pleased I wrote this post, I woke up yesterday thinking about the follower on instagram that noticed I was a little quiet and thought if I didn’t write the post before the holidays it wouldn’t get done. I thought it was important to share the troubles and show that these curveballs in life happen. thank you for your lovley message xx

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Kelly April 2, 2015 - 3:28 AM

Sorry things have been so tough for you! Thanks for sharing and being honest. x

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 11:50 AM

Thank you Kelly, I feel relief knowing holidays start tomorrow!

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Danielle April 2, 2015 - 7:32 AM

Hi Katrina, my son started Prep this year and normal routines have all had to change. They are big adjustments and I think as mothers we are prone to worrying about things that our kids aren’t even thinking about. Then I worry I am passing the anxiety on to him!!! This was a great honest blog post and it is really nice to hear that all mothers go through these same periods of doubt or worry. I love your blog and look forward to your honesty and tips

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 11:50 AM

Yes Danielle, your right it’s just the mother instinct in us and I was really concerned about the kids seeing me worried and this is why I just stay silent and worry within so they can’t see it. They are coping so well though!

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Jo {theorganisedyou.com} April 2, 2015 - 9:06 AM

Thankyou for your honesty Katrina. I have only been blogging for 7 months now, but I definitely find it a juggle with 2 young kids (4 and 2), part-time work and trying to start up a business. But I still love it! Sometimes the busy times and roller-coaster emotions are a definite sign that you need to make more time for yourself. Good on you for taking a holiday, you definitely deserve it!

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 11:48 AM

wow Jo, you do sound like you have a lot on. I think the way around it is to priorities and to-do lists help me with my sanity.

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Lucy @ Bake Play Smile April 2, 2015 - 10:54 AM

I could not agree more!!! Life is a massive roller coaster!! I just want to reach through the screen and give you a big cyber hug (in a non-creepy way lol!). 🙂

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 11:47 AM

LOL thanks for the hug Lucy!!

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Caz April 2, 2015 - 12:33 PM

Oh Kat! I had tears in my eyes reading that. I so know how you feel!
It’s been such a busy, but short term. There’s a lot to cram in for a family. The kids are growing so fast.
I also can be prone to over think things, but it’s just because we want to tick all the boxes & for everyone to be ok.
I’m very thankful for a few close friends to chat to at those times!
Happy Easter, enjoy it with your family. 🙂

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 1:08 PM

That’s it Caz our worrying to make sure everyone is OK it’s just the new changes and getting used to it, I’m such a routined person perhaps it was my way of coping with change.

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ANNIE April 2, 2015 - 2:06 PM

Kat,
Such a refreshingly honest and open post. My baby started school this year in Prep and as well as having the two older children at school I felt I was a little lost. But as time has gone on this term with being a relief teacher and actively involved in the school on a voluntary basis I can’t seem to find a spare moment to myself. I’m not sure whether this is a good thing or not but at the moment it’s working for me.

Our holidays started yesterday, love having the girls at home!!!!

Enjoy your staycation, that’s what we’re doing this Easter holiday too!!!

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 6:28 PM

It just flies doesn’t it. I also feel like the kids have grown up emensly this past term as well, with 2 of them taller than me and the youngest ooh so close. Happy Easter to you and your family Annie x

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Sarah April 2, 2015 - 4:45 PM

Hi Kat. When you read FB posts it seems everyone is leading this amazing life. In reality we don’t post about how we were up all night cleaning up vomit or how you turned up late to your daughter’s cross country race, so it is lovely to hear your honesty. My eldest started high school & my youngest (I have 4 children) started prep so it has been a tough term for me. I’m looking forward to a well earned break and I know next term will be easier.

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 2, 2015 - 6:27 PM

Sounds like the holidays are well earned for all us Mumma’s too! Your right, we always tend to share the good, perhaps I might try and share some more of the bad, the mess etc just to show it’s happens 🙂

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Anne-Marie April 2, 2015 - 10:22 PM

Hi Kat,

thank you so much for such a warm, honest, and beautiful post. I too can relate to how you have been feeling this term with my youngest starting a new school. She cried everyday for the first month and it broke my heart. I would be in tears after dropping her off. I had just started a new business, but I couldnt concentrate on anything and it consumed me. It made me question our decision to change schools and of course think, think, and think again. Thank goodness she has settled nicely now.

I think as mothers, we spend so much time and energy nuturing our gorgeous little people (and running the household) that we often forget about nurturing ourselves. It is important that we too get plenty of sleep, eat well, excerice, and drink plenty of water. We shouldn’t feel guilty if we can’t be everything to everyone, and it shouldn’t be expected either. Sometimes we need to go into ‘recovery mode’ and rejuvenate ourselves so we can keep going. You can only ride on adrenalin for so long before you hit exhaustion. For me I decided for one week that I would put work aside and just do the things I enjoy so I could get back to my usual happy energetic self and be a better mum again. And after a couple of catch up’s with friends, a massage, lots of early nights, and some lovely walks, I felt like I was ready to ride the roller coaster again – with resilience.

Thank you again for your wonderful post and I hope you truly switch off from work for the school holidays so you can properly rejuvenate.

Take care 🙂

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Julie April 3, 2015 - 4:38 AM

Gentle hugs Kat. Being a working Mum is tough and you a clearly doing a great job. Be kind to yourself too. Xx

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Trish April 3, 2015 - 7:38 PM

You’re such a lovely person! Thanks for sharing – it sounds like you’re doing a fab job.

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Elizabeth Wheeley April 9, 2015 - 7:00 AM

Thanks for sharing Katrina. I find you willingness to be open and honest about parenthood so refreshing, but also so empowering. You actively seek solutions and are such a reflective person. Thanks also for your blog – helps us all juggle busy lives – planning freezer lunches for Term 2. Thank you!

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Jennifer Bray April 13, 2015 - 6:48 AM

Kat you inspire me, and I so admire that you have resolved your situations! Brave lovely lady x

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Janelle April 22, 2015 - 8:22 AM

You are a complete inspiration! Love your ‘real-ness’ Kat, although your energy and organisation exhausts me! LOL Your drive and passion is infectious!
Thank you for sharing this – refreshing as always and I love how you resolved each challenge. PS. I am only just getting to read this now as we are on school holidays and the relaxed starts to the day have let me catchup on some reading. We too are enjoying a ‘staycation’ these hols.

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Katrina - The Organised Housewife April 23, 2015 - 9:01 AM

Ooh Janelle thank you so very much for your kind words. It really inspires me to hear from my readers and i love connecting with each and everyone of you. We had a lovely stay at home holiday, it was lovely spending time with my family. Hope you are enjoying your holidays too x

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